My shaky hands drew something so horrific that the moment I saw it – I was totally scared.
On Eid day, when I woke up half of the people on my Facebook had already posted their mandatory Eid selfies.
I was on my bed lazily scrolling through the newsfeed and reacting on almost all the "Eid Mubarak" pictures of people smiling and dressed up in mostly new clothes.
Those who did not buy new clothes this year also pulled out the most dazzling outfit from their almirah to celebrate the lockdown festival.
All the women looked gorgeous in their beautiful dresses, nicely done hair and makeup.
Then realisation dawned.
As the government announced general holidays from March 26, most of us have been working from home.
While on a usual office day, I would put on a little makeup (just to look awake) and comb my hair – now that I am working from home, none of these things matter.
Like everyone else, I wake up – still in my pyjamas and pull my laptop and start working. So, right now I do not need to comb my hair, put on some compact powder, draw the perfect liner over my eyelids or spend time painting my lips.
I thought about when the last time was that I put on some makeup? Then after thinking for a long moment – I found out it was on March 22, the last day when I went to work.
So, on Eid Day, it has become more than two months since I did my makeup and hence, I decided to do one for the festival.
I took a shower and decided to put on a dazzling outfit. Then I stood in front of the mirror and looked at my face – a pale face appeared on the mirror and there were dark circles under my eyes.
At that point, I decided to do my normal makeup – because I wanted to check if I still remember my quick morning ritual and also because I was running late for my mandatory Eid selfie.
I started looking for my foundation – I could not find it. I tried to find it everywhere but could not find it anywhere – then I finally found it inside my yellow backpack.
Once I was done with my foundation, skin corrector and concealer – I looked at the mirror again. This time my dark circles were no longer visible.
Then it was time for my eye makeup – and here the problem began. I had put on some eyeshadow. I took a while to do it and then found out my right eye had more makeup compared to my left eye.
So, I started fixing it with blending. When that did not work – I erased it and tried doing it again – my efforts went in vain and then I decided no more eyeshadow. I thought of keeping it simple and basic with just some eyeliner over my lids.
I searched the entire house but could not find my eyeliner. It was not even in my bag. Then I had to borrow one from my mom only to realise that I have totally forgotten the art of drawing perfect cat eyes over my eyelids.
My shaky hands drew something so horrific that the moment I saw it – I was totally scared. The struggle with lipstick took my struggle to another height.
The lockdown had totally taken me away from my makeup and every day look beautiful practice. Now what will I do when my office reopens? Should I start practicing my makeup again?